I wish no one would have ever said anything.
I feel it opened up a part of my mind that never wants to shut the fuck up anymore.
On another note,
Blahblahblah was told that if only blahblahblah was 5 years older! In other words, hey i'd totally date you if you were only 5 years older! We're not talking about me here. On either ends.
So that's awesome. I'm not sure if I should be appreciative of what I've got, or be scared I'm going to lose what I do have. Not that I take this for granted, I most definitely do not. But one day, that day will come, you know, that part where they realize you're no good, and you're only sinking the ship you're both in. That day.
It's kind of inevitable...
And on another note,
I'm so glad it's the weekend. But I can't stop thinking, and sleeping is the only thing that keeps me from thinking. I really wish I could just cut some memory off. It's fucking driving me insane.
And I just lied. Sleeping isn't the only thing that keeps me from thinking. As long as I'm concentrating on something else, like poke e man or reading a book or something, I'm good. But as soon as I stop concentrating, fucking BAM!BAM!BAM! thoughts be shootin' up in my head.
Music is something I'm starting to not be able to listen to, fucking thoughts be going through so many bullets when I put music on.
Dead End.
